What can I say? I love an adventure. For me signing on to this trip was an adventure in the making. It was a chance for me not only to serve, but to teach and observe my oldest son in an environment that will be life changing. My overall thought: a desire to see God work.
Yesterday I went to see a doctor for biofeedback to help me relax and release tension that has been a behavioral pattern for years. I tend to hang on to tension, and now body is saying it is time to let go. What does this have to do with Haiti? Bear with me.
The doctor began to show me this software that helps you measure your consciousness with relaxation. She told me it is a discipline for you brain to become single minded, to focus your attention. As you begin to relax, slowing your heart rate and taking deeper breaths, your brain is able to focus and raise your consciousness to the areas in your body that are tense, and helps you to release that tension. There is a picture on the computer screen of a serene environment in black and white. As you relax and raise your consciousness, the screen begins to change from black and white to color. Details are more noticeable, the picture becomes alive and you are affecting it by staying present in that moment.
I believe God is instilling this principle in me. This is how I should pray. Be still, breath, become single minded, and focus my attention on Him. Watch and see how my consciousness is raised to what is important to Him. See how colorful and intricate His picture is vs. my black and white picture.
This is where I am with our trip. I want to be a part of this picture, not only to watch it come to life and see lives transformed, but to be a part of the transformation. My desire now is to move away from my thoughts and expectations of what a “mission trip” should be, and be open and present to what God says it can be.
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